Monday, October 3, 2011

To say good bye or not ?....THAT is the decision

There is no doubt in my mind that I truly enjoy blogging. It is something I dabbled with in the early 2000's when my children where babies and then picked it up semi-full time when I wanted to share my adventures in homeschooling.That blog led to THIS blog, My creative outlet. My spot to share whatever I wanted to whenever I wanted to regarding the circus that goes on in my head and without fail in my life.

Until recently though, it has been much more harder than in times past for me to post here. These past 4 months have been a challenge to say the least. I can put my finger directly on a few of the thunder-stealing culprits. I'll briefly share them with you :
  1. School : the last few months have been stressful. The closer I got to being done, the more anxiety I felt and the more interruptions threatening my end I had. But fortunately, I did finish *insert HUGE smile here* 9/20/11 (one month later than scheduled )
  2. Family Crisis : Over the summer I was hit with some pretty hot news (and it wasn't the weather report ) that left the members of my household as well as extended family burned. It has been a joy stealer at times, but we keep on going with as much grace, happiness and prayer that we can bring. Life has cycles and we know that this too shall pass.
  3. Loss of a loved one : Every one hates to get that call at 3am, at work, or on the way home. The one that sends chills up and down your spine and makes you want to rip off your own skin because what your heart feels when someone you love has died, is a far worse pain. I lost my 23 year old brother in a murder. I decided that since I am the oldest child, losing a sibling was the closest thing I could imagine losing a child to be.....'nuff said, right?

So with this glimpse into my 3 ring circus I currently call life, I'm sure you can forgive me for not giving you regular posts, right ? Of course, because you are sooo understanding. So anyway, I have been wanting to put stuff up but I'm finding myself evolving in some kind of way, funny how that happens every time I think I got ME all figured out. This beloved site with all it's randomness is not really fueling me at the moment, and if I have to "push" myself to find content then it takes away from the whole point of this blog for me. And the kind of person I am, I need to have a point for what I'm doing (most of the time). So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I wont be posting on here anymore. *tear*After I finish printing all the posts that I want to remember, I will be shutting it down. I know, this is gonna be hard for you too :) but it's gonna be okay! I plan to resume my blogging on my wellness site (still under construction). Perhaps I will guest blog on other sites as I have before. I'm not totally leaving my bloggy roots, just shifting my direction some. Putting my focus more on my passions. I'll be saving most of my randomness for my facebook, twitter, and google+ pages. Perhaps one day I will reinvent myself and comeback with another blog name & site. Thanks to those of you that read my posts regularly here and commented, I appreciated it greatly.

But no matter what, I am STILL "The Mommy, and I'll Blog If I Want To ! "



  1. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I understand that you have to do what you have to do. You were one of the first people to comment regularly on my blog a few years ago. I have always appreciated that. Good luck in wherever you find yourself and whatever you do!

  2. Sandra,

    I am sorry for your loss and for your crisis. I am also sorry that I am just reading this now. I've been experiencing my own crisis for the past 4 months, which ended (or started ) with my father transitioning about three weeks ago. I wish you joy and peace. Take it all at your own pace. We'll be here.

  3. I'm really to hear about the lost of your brother. How tragic.... Sorry I am just now coming by.

    Life does manage to alter or change our paths... we just have to be prepared to ride the waves all the way through.

    Good luck with everything!